what i threw together from my mess of a mind

im everything you dont want but nothing you think i am because what you see and think of me is based of an illusion that ive so perfectly created for i could keep everyone out of my suffocating little box that ive become overly attached to so id rather have no air to breathe before i open my box and no one will be able to change that because its all part of the illusion that you think you can so you try and then epically fail at and then i become to be seen as a b**ch in order to stomp any ideas left in your head to make you try to make me open my box ever again because like i said its all an illusion i create it all and i control it all even when i seem a mess or at my weakest just know its only the illusion im creating for every outsider that sees me as a unpolished toy and think they have the right Technic to get me looking brand new because YOU CANT! because i wont allow it im too attached to my little box no matter how little air or time i have left if i dont open it even a crack because i wont 

mkay thanks for reading aha doubt anyone will ever read this and yet its the truest s**t ive ever made public to anything outside my head oh well